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I've had this script in the works for a Slay the Princess video for a minute and... it's hard.

This is sorta not a creativity issue and more of a "I have depression" issue, but it sucks nonetheless. Like I have an idea, and I mostly know how to complete it. But I have a job, and therefore am a slaughtered animal bleeding out for harvest most of the day and it's hard to do anything after getting home at that point. I feel bad cuz I never get to do the things I want, but I never get to do the things I want cuz I feel so bad.

It's the kinda things I've talked to my therapist time and time again and I still don't have any idea what to do about it cuz I still live under capitalism. I don't really understand how people have actual hobbies, or if what I have are actual hobbies and other people actually get meaningful amounts of fulfillment from them. I don't have the slightest idea how anyone has time for social hobbies, short of them not needing to eat or sleep or something.

It's also a bit funny, just that the video's concept is basically "it sucks but that's how you learn what change is and how to embrace it" and here I am, still sad in the basement.